2025-10-07 – Health – www.theguardian.com
I long to settle down with someone who can fulfill my sexual and emotional needs. But every time the excitement of a new relationship subsides, I want to stray
I’m a gay man in my late 40s. Since the age of 19, I’ve spent many, mostly enjoyable, years engaging in casual sex with other men. In my 30s I had a serious relationship that lasted four years, but it never fully satisfied me, in that I felt neither loved nor sexually nourished. The fact is that I have always craved casual sex. Whenever I start to date any man, when the initial excitement dwindles, I always get the urge to have sex with other men again.
I am now wondering if I’ll ever be able to sustain a monogamous relationship. I understand that many gay men have open relationships, but when I’ve witnessed them, they have seemed like hard work, often causing lots of pain and jealousy for everyone involved. In many ways, I want another man to love me while letting me remain sexually free, but I dread to imagine the…